Feeling the sorrow, but after 6 weeks??

hello,

Right now is 4th of October 2006, 1815hours.

Its my dad's birthday, and for some reason, i cant smile, at all. Went through her friendster, turns out that she had already changed her profile to 'single', no longer 'it's complicated'. I feel the blow after seeing her page. Is this really over? Is this really the end of me and her? This just cant be, it just cant..

SMS-ed her last nightm just to chat. Some how she mentioned 'bf'. It kinda gave me a blow because i thought she had found herself another guy, who would take good care of her. She said that her dream guy would have a art based personality so that he will help her in her work in college. Thats a point i can never give her. I will do the other things that she mentioned though. Will make her something. Already have something in mind for make for her. Will plan out the schedule and the to-do list asap to get the thing done for her. To be making something for her, i hope she will not just throw it aside, i hope she will really cherish it. I'll do my best to make it as nice as possible.

Until now, i am still no sure what is she trying to imply to me. Whether to ask me to fuck off and never disturb her again, or to try. Are you really THAT busy? And am i so unlucky that eveytime i msg you, your phone is running out of battery? Anyways, no matter what she was implying, i will still try and try to get her back. I want her to know that, i will do anything to have her back in my life. She is the one for me.. I need her to give me a chance to let her see that, we are meant to be together.


I love you.