Received an email from "My Past".

Hihi,

On the 21st of October 06, received an email from her. To be honest, i was shocked, to be receiving an email, and in this situation. It took me 2 days to reply her, because i dont know how am i going to. Finally on the 23rd, i finally replied her, the next morning, got an sms from her saying thank you to me for replying her.

It feels good to know that she is making an effort, to at least not let this 'friendship' of ours to subside. Thank you to you.

1st day of Raya!

Hi again all!

Today is 24th of October 2006, which is also the 1st day of Raya. Boring day, slept at 12am the night before, but woke up 2pm the next day, 14 hours of sleep! Hahaha but i was already sleepy around 430, guess i am a lazy dude ^.^

Went out to KLCC, then after that went for dinner at Si Chuan Dou Hua Restaurant in Parkroyal K.L.. The experience was great, and again, i am too lazy to post because i already posted one looooong post in happypeefriends.blogspot.com, so go ahead and read it there!

Selamat Hari Raya!

Feeling the sorrow, but after 6 weeks??

hello,

Right now is 4th of October 2006, 1815hours.

Its my dad's birthday, and for some reason, i cant smile, at all. Went through her friendster, turns out that she had already changed her profile to 'single', no longer 'it's complicated'. I feel the blow after seeing her page. Is this really over? Is this really the end of me and her? This just cant be, it just cant..

SMS-ed her last nightm just to chat. Some how she mentioned 'bf'. It kinda gave me a blow because i thought she had found herself another guy, who would take good care of her. She said that her dream guy would have a art based personality so that he will help her in her work in college. Thats a point i can never give her. I will do the other things that she mentioned though. Will make her something. Already have something in mind for make for her. Will plan out the schedule and the to-do list asap to get the thing done for her. To be making something for her, i hope she will not just throw it aside, i hope she will really cherish it. I'll do my best to make it as nice as possible.

Until now, i am still no sure what is she trying to imply to me. Whether to ask me to fuck off and never disturb her again, or to try. Are you really THAT busy? And am i so unlucky that eveytime i msg you, your phone is running out of battery? Anyways, no matter what she was implying, i will still try and try to get her back. I want her to know that, i will do anything to have her back in my life. She is the one for me.. I need her to give me a chance to let her see that, we are meant to be together.


I love you.

My Princess - History and is there a chance for me?

Hello,

Hmmm.. thoughts had been running through my mind, about whether i have a chance to get back together with my princess. She broke the relationship off about 6 weeks ago from today, 2nd of October 2006.

Let me let you in about Us. We met each other in high school, in Form2, class 2F2. She caught my attention with her cute personailty and bubbly attitude. We started to SMS each other every single night, since i got her number (at that time, it was her mum's number, she was sharing the handphone with her mum). After a few months of SMS-ing, somehow we started calling each other sweet names, pet names, hahaha, weird huh? Can't remember how did that started either, oh well, but it was nice and sweet. Haha still remembering, once her mum got hold of the phone and saw a msg that i sent to her that had sweet names in them, hahaha. But she told her mum that it was all a joke and it was okay after that.

During the year end semester break, and it was about time that we head back to school for form3, we were chatting and somehow, the question about 'Who i like' at that time came up. And SOMEHOW, i got the guts to answer her this: 'If i said that the girl i like is YOU, would you believe it?'. She replied, and i asked her the same question too. I misread her reply and thought she said that it WASN'T me. At that time i felt stupidly heart broken, hahaha. I read the msg that she sent again, and it wasn't what i thought the msg was!! She actually said that she like me too!! Hahaha. So that's how it all started, and all about the expressing part. I know, i know that its cheesy and childish, but we were only kiddos! 14 turning 15 year olds!! >.<

After the 'expressing' part, i was confused about what 'we' were at that time. After 2 days, i asked her to clear things out. I can still remember i actually asked: 'What are we now? Are we a couple? Are you my gf?'. Hahaha and she replied only 1 word, 'Dont know' hahaha. Then so i went ahead and ask her: 'Then in that case, would you be willing to be my gf?', and she replied 'YES'!!! Hahaha at that moment i was very happy.

From form3 onwards, we were together. Up until the end of form4, we were on and off a couple of times. She broke it off i think twice, and i'm responsible for once. In form5, we got back together, and that time, it was really a serious thing. It evolves from puppy love, kiddy love, to.. LOVE, in my case at least. At that time we were together, that was the first time that we kissed, and it was great. In the cinema, i asked her: 'Can i kiss you?', hahahaha funny right?

That final time we got together, last about 2 years. In that 2 years, our relationship blossomed into something amazing, and i know that i have found my life partner, to share the rest of my life and to have a family together. By then, i realized that, i only need to be with only one girl, and she, was the one.

Now, we are both single. For the first couple of weeks, we were quite close. We went to the movies, ate dinner, ate lunches, she even come to my house to help me wrap book, while i took a nap =). I remember an outing where i brought her my 'fishbox' of cameras. We were at the parking lot at 1U. We were trying out the camera, and she didnt manage to take any pictures. I guided her, and i accidentaly hold her hand to hold the camera. I don't think she felt a thing, but to me, it was nice.

I can't imagine myself, being with another girl after the relationship, anywhere in the future. And i can't bear to see her with another guy. I really hope that time would bring us back together again once more. Dying to kiss her, dying to hug her.. Miss her voice, miss her smile, miss her caring, loving attitude. I know that maybe we will not be the same 'us' anymore, but i only want her back in my life.

I have a feeling that this wouldn't be the end of Us. We will have a future, we will once again be together again. I just know it. Till i hug and kiss you again, my dear..

I wonder would she ever have the chance to read what i've written here, since i didn't plan to tell anyone about it. Let's just leave it all to faith and let time to do its trick.

I love you..


Till next time, goodbye blog!

P.S. Feels good to express my feelings out, even if it is to a blog, of course it would be better letting her know in person, but, i would be disrupting her life.

30th of September - Memorable day!

Hi! It's me again,

30th September 2006 was a memorable day for me. Not just because that it was the day that one of my closest A-Levels friend, leaves off to the UK. He will be sorely missed =(. Anyways, other than that, it was a terrible day!! Details on happypeefriends.blogspot.com, hehe lazy to post it all over again, it was a very very very.. looong day!! Hahaha ^.^

It was a terrible morning, but it was quite a good afternoon though. Went paintballing with my high school classmates, and the best thing was i 'killed' alot of people. Furthermore, i didn't get shot a single time!! Hahaha..

Go and visit the blog if you wana know about the details lah, hehehe..